Chosen or Given

My people say that their life is what they chose it to be, but for me I don’t know if my life is what I chose or what was given to me. I look at the spiritual gifts I have some understandable others unbelievable. Were these things given to me because God purposed my life for these things, or because I was man enough to step up when others were too afraid? Some people may say how can you question God, but I’m not questioning God. I am wondering if what I have been given a cross of inheritance like Esau and Jacob or what was meant for my life when I came out my womb. At the ends of the day are these things too abstract to believe or too concrete that I am afraid of the thought. My life in my own eyes has caused me to feel as though I am golden children. But I don’t want to be seen in that light I have flaws like everyone else, struggle with the same thing everyone else does, and have the pains. All I know is that I believe that love and joy will abide in me because God will lead me and guide me in all truths.

Overwhelming

This time last year I was at a different point in my life, per happens a different season. All I know is that I am nothing like the person I used to be. The person I used to be wanted to please people above all, and would sacrifice my known for someone else. At the same time I would never compromise my values or beliefs for anything or anyone; which was the best thing at the time. I put myself through yet another relationship that I do not regret, but I embrace it for it taught me things about myself. Like I will never allow someone to separate me from my parents and family; either you take all of us or none of us. I also learned that if someone goes into a situation for the wrong reasons things will get hurt and “fight like hell” to fix everything. All I can say is that I love God more because of the lows rather than the highs. Although the highs are great the lows are where you can find new life and understanding. God Bless.

The backyard of it all

As the wind and rain plays on my head like the drum majors in a marching band, I realize I am back where my passion for people started the backyard. It’s in the backyard of it all where I find my peace, the season may change, even the forms of precipitation may change but the backyard doesn’t go anyway. No matter how small, how gray, or how big it is there will always be a backyard in my mind. Even if it is a balcony or porch to me it is still a place to be free and be revitalized. If I have to go to the woods, the beach, or maybe the city the backyard will always be there just like God. Everything around him may change and my circumstances my change but He is always there. No matter how small He may seem. Like that day in the rain He will also send things to remind me of my passions. I feel like I finally understand when the bible says, “This is what the Lord of Heaven’s Armies says: My love for Mount Zion is passionate and strong; I am consumed with passion for Jerusalem!”

You maybe wondering what I am talking about but this is a section from a spiritual geography paper I have to write for my College Writing class. As i said in early post my life has not be bad, it's been great compared to most. All I can say is that I've been test and tried and now I know that God will never forsake the righteous. But most importantly God allows me to love his people and embrace the good in them. I've been reading Rigorously Honest of blog of one of my follow classmates and its almost. You can tell that she has been through alot but has survived it all. Most people, even herself, call her a feminist but I call her a judge before her times. Another blog that I read been reading is Inspired which will inspire you at the worst time of the day.

Time Goes By

In the past months I have experienced multiple moments of over-whelming joy and peace. It feel as though as more time goes by in my life the more I feel like a new person. I feel like I am changing for the better every day I wake up. The key to this is to love life and find things you're passionate about. I can say that loving life has turned out to be the best things I've done in my life. When you love life you get the over-whelming joy and peace you long for, when you love life your world doesn't seem like it's upside down anymore. When you love life you start loving yourself differently not always worrying about what you see or how you feel at a particular moment, you are just in peace knowing life is still moving. Time Going By. The time that it takes for you to get mad at something or someone is time wasted, you're giving life to something that has already happened. I like to use that energy to give life to something in the now and future. It may seem hard to think about but if you take all the time and energy you wasted on worrying and being mad on yourself you may be further along in a lot of what you do. Don't just let time go by.

This is not a long post :-)

Things to think about:

II Corinthians 3:16
II Corinthians 4:3-10

Who do man say that you are?

There is an expected end that God is going to bring us to, where when we look in the mirror we will see God, not the things of this world.